W4itiNG 4 t4t d4y 2 coM3
Been thkin thr out tis few day, me relief alot already...thx to the fiendship i hv now, they gave me lot of comment tat made me see thr tat matter...just now my jie, she used to trust one of his fren as sis...whenever she is in needed with help, my jie will help her de...but in the end she backstab my jie...frm last time untill now my jie hv spend ard 7k on her as she hv no $....whether its on food or a place to stay...7k!!! but my jie say its worth it as she only spend tat sum of $ to see thr her...so i am the lucky one, as i didnt loss anythg but only a long time friendship n brothership...as i noe there is still so many ppl by my side, so why shld i care even i noe sum1 is stabbin me frm behind...i shld as well care for the one who care for me...one more thg is thx to my dear as she is the one alway there to an wei wo whenever i am sad...hehe^^
Stress
I dun very noe wat to write....i am hving lot of stress tis few day...the stress while make me crying inside my heart...very xin ku, alway try to be happy but in my heart alway feeling low....
Family stress, stress frm friend, relateship stress and study is combine in my stress...
i noe tat everyone will hv stress de but not so many at one time...i very wan peng kui liao, very wanted to give up liao give up in my life...
last time after watchin xiao hai bu ben 2, i feel tat my life still can carry on de but tat is only a show, it dun very be in real life...i alway wish to be relief, but by wat...playin game, try tat liao but only get scoldin frm my mum...punchin the wall done tat too but the pain in my heart come again...cuttin my hand wrist, done tat one and nearly end up in hospital...i just dunno wat to do....wo zhen de zhen de hao fan ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Disappointin
Yesterday slp ard 5am...wok up 11am, play ms while dling programme as my comp reformate untill 4.30pm...hv a bath and go to yishun meet maolin and ys go eat...dun hv the mood go sch so didnt lor...play bball with they all untill 11pm den headed hm lor...
reach hm ard 11.30, hv a bath...
i now den relieve tat the ppl tat i hv been believing and helpin is actually a two headed snake...i damn disappointed, relieving tat i am sure a fool to do tat...i hated tis person, promise nv believe in him anymore...
Celebrate shafari's birthday
Yesterday its shafari's birthday, he got cook noodle, fried chicken....a small party, ys, maolin, joe, solo, me and his fren gather tog to celebrate his birthday lor....alvin and mei got come oso for awhile becos they and mei's family are going to malaysia(金马崙) untill monday...sure to miss mei tis few day de haiz....
we help ourself to the foods ands drinks...we den stay over nitex outside....we hv fun tokin to each other, playing card game...in the morning we went to hv our breadfast...8am we went to the nearby cybercafe to play lan game tog as there morning cheaper 1hr 90 cents...after that we all headed hm...
reach hm ard 2pm, hv a bath and down onto the bed and fast aslp, too tired....when the time i woke up is already 8.30pm liao...went to cook some noodle and eat and now here i blogging lor...
Despression is wat i going to get soon!!!
我要疯了, 真的要疯了....真的希望我可以像以前有coma wat oso no need to worry liao...today wish to be happi becos its mei's birthday de...den suddenly augre with alvin abt the $ i borrow frm him de...i alway help him or cover him but he still shoot me in front of mei...he say he is not forcing me to return him $, darm him not force...shit cant buy tis cant buy tat cant buy HG still say not forcing...very thg i wrong, yes i am damn fcukin wrong la...i fcukin hate myself, do everythg is failure...no $ no nothg...i........damn my fuckin life damn it...
sCh c4nc3l 4 2d4y
Hving a boring day 2day...woke up den play ms, training my dear acc...play till ard 3pm+ den watch some naruto anime be4 preparing to go sch...so sian need go sch haiz....ard 5.30 hv a bath and pack up my sch books and off i go...reach yishun ard 6pm, went to np to buy sumthg(special) be4 walking to sch....reach sch liao and a bit angry to found out tat 2day class cancel so sian liao...so thk of meeting ys lor...
after meeting ys we go play bball, later maolin came down...we all hv few bball matches...so sad to found out tat my bball skill 退步了...play untill ard 10pm+, we all den went to hv our dinner lor...after tat we all headed hm...
reach hm ard 11+...hv a bath and send mei a friendster testimo for her birthday and now here blogging lor....
Dunno wat 2 do
4fter past tis few days, i den relieve tat i very didnt care for ownself enuff only on others mostly...as my char is ppl came 1st and i am the last...
And oso relieve tat being the post of a Da ge and long time fren very diffcult...i alway wan to be a gd da ge but didnt hv any idea on how to do tat...whenever saw her cry, its hurt me too...scare her to be sad too....as fren i wanted to trust him but watever promise he made will come out to be empty de...i very dunno wat can change him de...
thking tat i am a failure in tis world , doing mostly watever thg nv come out to be successfull de....very wanted to noe how will i stay alive in tis world?
明天一定把那个店闹到倒闭
Ytd stay over night at alvin's hse...ard 10pm go hm, reach hm ard 11pm...hv a bath and play comp lor (MS)...train dear acc doing pq...
play untill ard ard 7pm, went to Ex-po's comp fair meet mei and alvin as i wan to buy new MP4 and alvin work there as a promoter of router...reach there ard 8.30, buy liao mp4 nv hv a gd check...untill ard 9, alvin off work liao, den we all went back to yishun...reach there ard 10pm+, went and hv some boom boom...hehe i win mei le, so happy i very improve liao...thx to alvin and mei lor...after tat i headed hm as tat is the last bus hm...alvin acc mei hm as his dad can drive him hm in a car...
reach hm ard 12pm and found out tat the promoter hv given me the wrong USB plug for the mp4 and the mp4 hv some scratches on the surface lor >.<...so piss off still need to go down to Ex-po to change for another one haiz....tmr tat店一定倒闭的...
